lol, I tip toed across the floor our cleaner was cleaning and she said I have pretty feet. I love compliments that take actual observation, I thought it was so sweet XD

Im going to finish school in about a hectic month and abit. But I wont have time for anything, so many finals and pre-finals (god knows what you guys call those).
Then Im going to have around half a year or more of free time before Im forced to join the army for 2 miserable years of my life. EveryIsreali has to go to the military when they finish school. Boys do 3 years girls do 2, and boys are usually forced to combat units if theyre in good physical shape. You get thrown in jail if you dont go.
(now I explain military and my hate to it abit so you can skip this, it has to do with where my lifes heading though)
I wont be in a combat unit, there are tons of positions in the army, from secretary to translator, to excercise instructor, to soldier in a combat unit, etc'. The army gives you a list of choices for units and positions you can serve, and you fill in how much you want to be in each unit and hope for the best. I hate countries and have social problems that prevent me to talk to strangers, so Im just being forced to waste two years of my life on the equivelant of a "job" I hate. There arent art jobs in the army ofcourse. There are also closed bases and open bases, open means you go home every day, closed means you dont. Ill definately not go to the army if I have to go to a closed base. I dont even want to live in Isreal when Im an adult, so its terrible I have to go because Im too young to escape the country. Also you get much less than the minimum wage for military service, so you can imagine how terrible it is for poor kids that need to work to support their family when theyre forced to work at something that barely pays.
Also, you cant dye your hair unnatural colors, wear any nailpolish but plain pink, or wear any piercings but one lobal piercing to the army, and you have to wear a military uniform. Meaning laving school doesnt mean Ill be able to start looking the way I want to and finally feel pretty. Ill be even more restricted than at school.
There are ways to get out of service, like getting married or being too mentally or physically inadaquate to serve. If Ill suffer too much I guess Ill get my friends step mom whos a psychologist to state that Im depressed so Im released.
Sigh... I really hate the army, it disgusts me in every single way.

Untill the army Ill make a portfolio for art school and work abit. Not a real consolation, after 6 years of having to go to through the hell of highschool I dont get to start an adult or pre adult life and start chasing my dreams, I have to work in a boring job I dont like for principles I dont like for 2 whole years. Being forced to a new social enviroment and being forced to work at anything thats not art for 2 whole years is simply a well designed nightmare for me, so Im very depressed lately. Going out of school is the end of a bad time in my life and the start of a terrible time in my life for me.